hello blog. its freaky how i turn to a blog page to dampen whatever is going on inside me.
hes done it again. give me a break. im so sick of this. so sick. u have no idea.
i need to start afresh. push aside this confusion. this mess. i cant just push it aside. i cant. i need to resolve it. i cant do it alone. he wouldnt help me. i have to do this.
i cant deal with this confusion. i hate feeling like this. but whatever tt happened, i deserved it. i deserved it all.