how many times can you hit rock bottom and still find courage to stand up gracefully. life has kicked me in my kneecaps and found my deepest biggest weaknesses.
you can't find grace when you don't know what you're looking for. unfortunately, we search for purpose the same way we fight for a lost cause. you can't find balance if you're brooding over darkness and anticipating a fall for the next lost cause.
how do we get so comfortably uncomfortable with the negative vibes that kills our very existence. it seems like we fool ourselves into thinking that what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger. on the contrary, what doesn't kill you, numbs you.
you build an immune system to ward off the evil works of merely existing. but like a disease, the virus spreads and kills your immune system gradually. when all is said and done, it leads you back to groundzero.
it looks like a different place and a different time but your tacit instinct tells you that you've been here before. it isn't deja vu, it is jamais vu.